Sannah speaking for myself I don't know if I would use the term abandonment (I've never been 'abandoned' as a child because I feel like my parents were never there to begin with to be abandoned - I suppose perhaps by T??) but just the situation where you feel like you need that 'love' and caring that you've so desperately craved your whole life. It's a need that stems from the 'little person' inside and a T is the closest I've ever come to that 'love' feeling being fulfilled before.

The thought of leaving T and never talking to her again or feeling that comfort from being in her office is sad, scary, and hopeless at best. My adult side knows this 'love' (for lack of a better term) is a mirage and is only temporary at best.

Rainbow I hope you don't interpret this posting as a hijack - just sharing a thought or two.