zoo, I know what you mean. T triggered me and made me think I'm almost ready, or I should be ready to be able to comfort myself. I'm trying to remember when she said that if "that child part needs me to hold her hand, then that's what we'll do." I thought I made it clear that the child still needs her to do that. Intellectionally, I know that T can't hold my hand forever, but emotionally I want her to. Breathe and be here NOW; that's what I have to do too. Thank you!

Sannah and geez, I don't know if it's abandonment or not. I've never been abandoned either, and I WAS loved by my parents. Maybe not in the way I needed; I've never figured it out. But it's more like geez said. It's a need I've always had and now it's getting met. It's not about abandonment; it's about having to grow up. I always say: "I feel too little to have to be grown up".

thanks, granite. I know T knows I'm not ready. She'll say that's the problem with email. She said something and I took it the wrong way.