Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm back in hospital due to paranoia, hallucinations, and general stress. Also, some thoughts of self-harm and suicide.

The doc just took me off Abilify today because my white blood cell count is low, and that's probably what's causing it. Because of this, he said I may become even more paranoid without the Abilify.

I'm worried and guilty because this means my brother will have to take care of the house on his own. I know he's 16 and can do it, but I wish I was there to help him. I feel totally useless at this point.