Honestly, I don't think anyone gives a damn about me....I'm so stupid, thinking that a message board is going to make up for what i'm missing in life, what i'm missing is friends, and i don't want to let anyone in, which makes it very lonelly. Not that you guys aren't great and all, but it can't and won't make up for what i'm missing. I think the only thing that will is if I cut, and cut, and cut....cut away all the lies, all the crap, just everything. that's all i can do, it's the only thing that I can control. I hate this. I hate feeling this way, I just want to sleep, and sleep and sleep, never wake up, just sleep, it would be so great if i could do that. when you are asleep the world doesn't matter, it can't hurt you....not while your sleeping. i'm leaving now....i may not post for a while....i just don't know anymore.....goodbye.