I came on here looking for support. I am already feeling miserable, dealing with depression, anxiety and now this living situation that i'm having a very hard time dealing with. I have been posting about this for a month now in another section so maybe you don't know everything about the situation and me, maybe you do and just never responded. You have a right to your opinions of course. Yes i was looking for someone to be on my side because i really feel like everyone is looking down on me and making me out to be the bad guy. I feel like i have no one to talk to about this, i feel alone. I don't think i'm a bad person. My bf and i are in a committed relationship together we have been together for years and living together for years alone we have no children. I have supported him when i was able to work and he was unemployed. He supported me when i couldn't work. Now I am unable to work and on disability and he works, we are both contributing right now. He is a good man yes but he puts others first a lot and i do feel hurt by that. I don't think i'm a bad person because i want to be first in my partners life. I want to be a priority. I want my needs recognized. I have always put him first before my own family. My family knows that too, they know where he stands with me. He is my family. That is how i look at it. Yes I was angry on this particular post and i spoke out of anger. Maybe i sounded like i was all about myself but i am not. I spoke more about my bf and his family dynamics on another post and they make him feel responsible for them and their needs and make him feel guilty for wanting to have his own life and do things he wants to do. I know that i can't change him. I have been dealing with this for years and trying to hang in there because i do love him. He is a part of me. It is difficult for me to think of being without him. But its difficult being in the relationship and having his family and their problems in our life all the time. I know most people i talk to want to just tell me what to do they want me to either leave or stay. Its hard for me to make a choice. All i wanted was some support. I just needed to talk and maybe get some supportive words from someone because i was upset. Thats all. I wasn't expected to be criticized and made to feel like i'm a horrible person. Right now i feel anxious and depressed and seeing your responses only made me feel worse.