Hello. I am someone who suffers from Bi-polar as well as Asperger's Syndrome. The last six months has been very trying; I was hospitalized this Summer for depression and am dealing with this disease (depression) now, currently.

I am in a wonderful long-term relationship with a great woman. She is also Bi-polar.

I am writing for the following reason and as a source of venting: She has sleep disorders as well, it seems, and stays up all night and sleeps whenever she feels like it. When she is feeling depressed her sleep cycle is even more erratic (as it is currently).

I have been having trouble with this lately. Perhaps I am feeling needy. The other day she was sleeping until 8:00 PM. I felt abandoned and alone and I end up cutting myself (self mutilation). I am not blaming her for this act but it was a result of how I was feeling then.

Today she decides to go back to bed at 4:00 PM. This instantly sets me into a mindset of loneliness and it does make me silently mad at her.

I do not understand why this is a big thing to me or why I feel this way. I wish I could speak to my therapist right now as I would probably gain better perspective from doing so. In lieu of not being able to see my therapist today (Sunday) I am feeling erratic due to her going back to bed so late in the day-- I want to scream, drink (and I never drink alcohol) or do something else to vent these feelings of confusion and abandonment.

I love this person. I just do not think she understands the depths of my pain, confusion and other feelings.

Thank-you for reading.

Matthew