I actually posted this yesterday on my lunch break on Craigslist, thought hopefully to redeem myself in case people recognized it as being me . . . :
Actually, I'm crying now, but in a few minutes I have to leave and go back to work. I forgot to take my anti-depressant and my orthotrycylin yesterday, I made the mistake of double dosing today. I was totally out of it, having trouble following a conversation, and feeling totally depressed about my job on top of it. So I wqas trying to just go through the motions and accidentally said
'hello there' again to a lady at the store when I meant to say, "Ok then' and I looked like a complete retard or something I think a was weird with several customers today, not feeling quite my regular happy self today, that's for sure. .
my manager/bf asked if I was ok and that I looked intoxicated. I can't always be happily perfect in life. I just want to stick my head in sand like an ostrich,. I'm pretty sure I relate to them better than horses at this point. I'm feeling a bit better. I went to the bathroom a lot, I think I cleaned my system out, but I'm left tired and wish I could quit my job and never come back. But then I might be overreacting.
>>> ... Cut to today, I'm depressed. taking my pills here in a sec. hmmph.
I feel like dying, every day is the same, I cant wait till my days off, eff it, I'll start studying to nihgt and tomorrow, gotta find another job, this ones killing me.