This may sound like a bit of an odd issue, but I don't honestly know who my new primary care provider will be. My insurance, if you can call it that, recently changed from a closed system (e.g., Military Medicine) to all private. My other problem is I rarely have the time to get in and see a provider because I travel the world over, and frankly I'm not sold on the idea of medication or therapy, but I know I need help and soon. I find a sense of urgency now because I feel my job performance is slipping and my relationship seems to be headed in the wrong direction.

I know I am extremely thin skinned but the last thing I need to do is lose my career or my partner. Being on the road constantly is really not helping me any, mentally or physically. I just feel the nerves starting to get to me now more than ever. Jet lag is a huge factor in my life at the moment. I am not so good at making time zone changes. Often I find it difficult to know which city I am in half the time, and when I get situated in a motel I sometimes have difficulty finding the bathroom in the middle of the night! It's NOT a pleasant feeling, believe me.

I guess my biggest fear is that one day I might just break down and cry (not very professional I suppose), but what other options do I have living life on the road? Anyone have any other feedback or coping mechanisms I might try until I can see a doctor and/or a psychiatrist?

One last question for those of you out there, with ADD, is it common to have other conditions? For example, in my case I am quite sure I have some form of PTSD from my days working in Public Safety. Sights, sounds, noises, lighting, at certain times can trigger strong emotional responses in my mind. Related, but not, I know I was also verbally and physically abused as a child. It sounds like a lot of luggage, but I am simply amazed I am where I am today. Successful, but something doesn't seem to be right in my life mentally.