Hi all. I am new here but I have been lurking for the past week.

I have been seeing a therapist for almost 1.5 years now. After about six months, I became very attached to her, wanting her to be my mother, and feeling that I love her. She has been so supportive and comforting of me and I know that a lot of the changes I have accomplished has been due to her encouragement. But the feelings I have for her are painful to me because I know she is only my therapist and will never love me back in any way. I have told her frequently about how it is a struggle to see her and how much it hurts not to have my love reciprocated. I try to quit therapy at least once a month I think. Every time she tells me to work through our relationship and that the process will heal me. Despite my complaints of my pain and asking her for help on a few occasions, she has never given me guidance on how to cope or deal with my feelings of unreciprocated love and rejection. My life is a story of feeling unloved and unwanted. Seeing her makes everything so much more painful. Now, I am at the point where I am angry that she hasn't helped me in this aspect. Am I wrong to expect her to give me guidance on coping with my feelings? Our relationship is otherwise a very good one, and I have never been so close to anyone. I should also say that I see her twice a week usually but the last month and a half we have had sessions three times a week, and my feelings since Spring of this year. I have complained to her about m If it helps any, she has told me before that she thinks I have BPD. I would greatly appreciate your insights. The pain is so great; it's very hard to see her as it is a constant reminder of rejection and loneliness.

By the way, I have not ever had any romantic feelings for her.