It has been a great while since I posted on this fourm, and I have had my reasons.. None of them will effect any of you ok.

I have gotten married, which most of you think ok whoopie, she should be happy, well I would most likely be happy if the state had not decided to take away all of the help I was getting for my child, when I got married.. I have lost all of my state aided child assistance and it has put me in a very fincial bind, to have to pay for her full time day care while I am in school, ** this had brought my deperssion back to the sufrace and I do not like that** a week after our wedding to boot the day before our hoonymoon too...

They have also decided to take away all of our foodstamps which takes food away from our mouths and yes I knwo I can go and get a job ,but when or if I drop below part time stauts in school I automatically get a huge student loan bill come due.. around the amount of $25,000 to start paying on.. No chance to pay that back with $480 a month in full time day care which jessica my daughter has to have. Then on top of that they are trying to take away my medical coverage and stop that too.. The only reason they can not do that is I applied for SSI, which I did not want to do, but I have no choice in my worldy goods anymore I hve to do things I no longer want to do to keep my head above waater I have to go back to work before I get my teaching degree, and give up on my education yet again.. Just to be a noramall..

Why do states do this to make us break when we are just starting to get our heads above water???

Sorry, I am just really down and I have no where to turn to.. and no one to talk to.. I feel lost and alone yet again..