(((((((((((((roseleigh)))))))))))))

Ugh, I have been there too. When I have asked my T for things I've really NEEDED but couldn't get, I've been SO filled with shame. Even if it's just something as simple as asking for an extra session because I'm having a hard time, and he doesn't have any openings.

It's been really REALLY hard for me to learn that if I can ask for whatever I want/need, and it's OKAY, and if T can say yes or no, and THAT is okay too. It was hard for me to get that, and own it. It took a lot of time and a lot of practice and a lot of reassurance and a lot of faith.

I know it's so hard to go back, but go. T is still the same safe T. You are still good.