@ Baltazar: I honestly don't look back on that night as a bad one believe it or not. We did have a wonderful evening until the whole snap your neck thing. LOL. I see it as one of my greatest victories. Having been significantly abused all my life I look back on it as a turning point in my life. I know that had I triggered or responded in most any other way it is likely that I would not still be alive. From all my previous abuse I knew I had to keep the power ballanced and I did.

@Myer: If it weren't for bad luck I'd have none at all... So... It is not likely that I will be playing that close to the flames again, at least not knowingly... although I am truly facinated. But then, I am facinated by a lot of people... narcisists are particularly fond of me as well

I apreciate your posts and am learning a lot. Weather you give a damn or not. Likely not.