Preacher, what you posted to me just now is so important to me. It is the crux of my problem, at least one of them! I hurt so much inside, try to say that, then you say you don't know what I want. I'm ignored and pushed aside a lot. I'm kind of invisible sometimes.

What I wanted was to be heard and to be given some hope that I WILL be able to go from T giving me love, to my giving love to myself. I wanted help with feeling depressed about it. I wanted acknowledgment of my pain. But, it seems like I have to shout to be heard, and then people IRL tell me I'm shouting at them.

I'M HURTING AND I DON'T WANT TO BE IGNORED.

I don't mind the way the thread went, but I feel (maybe it's one of my child parts) that "what about me" feeling.