i've asked my therapist for some of arguably the most ridiculous things, which were of course denied, and i have told her some of the most shameful things about me. i am confident though that she doesn't judge me. i am the only one judging myself harshly in the wrong. your therapist probably doesn't think anything negative about you and your requests.

as far as what to do about not feeling safe...as I said before I am in the same boat with you but maybe thinking that your therapist doesn't judge you will help you feel more comfortable.