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Originally Posted by Omers
@ Baltazar: I honestly don't look back on that night as a bad one believe it or not. We did have a wonderful evening until the whole snap your neck thing. LOL. I see it as one of my greatest victories. Having been significantly abused all my life I look back on it as a turning point in my life. I know that had I triggered or responded in most any other way it is likely that I would not still be alive. From all my previous abuse I knew I had to keep the power ballanced and I did.
@Myer: If it weren't for bad luck I'd have none at all... So... It is not likely that I will be playing that close to the flames again, at least not knowingly... although I am truly facinated. But then, I am facinated by a lot of people... narcisists are particularly fond of me as well 
I apreciate your posts and am learning a lot. Weather you give a damn or not. Likely not. |
I can't speak for Meyers but I appreciate your posts. I find them very interesting. They are helping me heal from my own abuse which I never realized how deep until recently. My childhood memories are hazy and disjointed which makes recovery difficult - but not impossible.
Since you have lived so many of your years abused you might be "addicted" to it...it's what you know. Abuse usually comes with a lot of "brain washing." Who knows what is ingrained in your mind.
However, your judgment is skewed now and you will need to learn to make healthy choices. This will be your challenge as it is mine.