... lately it's making me more mad than anything... all the opportunities squandered. Stolen revolutions. Lost ideals and hopes. Masses of cynical people and their even more cynical politicans. Even those who should care, don't really care anymore... mostly out of survival instinct. We were hoping for the end of the history... oh, the joke was on us.

I am really worried when I try to look into the future. Things seem to be falling appart. History has gotten too rapid. Maybe there is something about the 2012 prophecy... end of the era. Civilization, whatever. It seems that things cannot go back to when they were before this mess (especially financial crisis) started... and what than?

I feel pretty old today... i've seen the history made... and at the moment... I don't like it anymore. It's too weird, unpredictable.