I have thought of that often - how being aspie may contribute to the desire to want to si. I think it plays a big role. I get so frustrated at the limitations with my body. The discordination, the akwardness, the hyper and hypo sensitivies to touch, fabrics, sounds, light, color. The emotional and psychological trauma of always being labeled: "weird, crazy, psycho, clutz,strange, stupid, lazy learner ..."

The so wanting to fit it, be "normal", the psysical and psychological strain of trying. And just not understanding why I can't and why it is so hard.