I'm not sure if there has been research done into one large dose of escitalopram to shake someone out of depression. I've done it to myself twice now; once 140mg, and then 60mg. I felt terrible the next day, luckily didn't go into mania, T was terrified about my liver, but the following day I'd managed to climb a great way out of this hole. hmmmm - just a thought

While the depression is gone, it appears as if I've lost a very close relationship on the weekend. The person was my closest friend, who I discussed EVERYTHING with. It hurts me to have lost this friendship, and it keeps running through my head... She got upset because I went back to my boyfriend, who had been neglecting me a bit and didn't respect me like he should. But it's my life, and i love him, so it's my decision. But she feels it was wrong and I don't respect myself enough, she she terminates a friendship.

I cannot help but feel empty at the moment. I know it's a Borderline trait too, to feel like you have a void that cannot be filled. It's not around this trigger particularly; it's something I battle with in general.
Now I'm even more paranoid about friendships/relationships - I'm too scared to lose them and get hurt.
Arg - is this normal????
Going off home now - it's 5:30PM, time to make supper, do some work on my other business, then watch "Law Abiding Citizen" with a blanket and PJs with my bf.
Don't ask - I know it's nearly December, I'm in South Africa and it ought to be boiling, but it's raining 5 out of 7 days, and it's 20 Degrees celcius, plus my workd aircon is even colder. I'm cold and miserable.
Cheers!