There is a large part of the grade that is subjective based on the opinion of the professor. This was the only class they could fail me in and prevent me from continuing with my training this year. So it appears (at least from the outside) that the professors got together and decided to fail me because of my anxiety and not because of my actual performance in the class.

I think we are going to have to get back into this tomorrow in session. So I think it is going to come up. It was just really hard after she read the review as it seems like her perception of me changed. I really really tried to convince myself that I was seeing things that were not really there. But I guess it has all come to a head.

The class itself is the lab section of my psychotherapy class. The frustrating thing about it is that she doesn't grade our work until the end of the semester so 1, we don't know how we are doing in the class, and 2, it allows her to manipulate grades how she wants. She even practically admitted to me that she manipulates grades so that people get the grade that she thinks they should get.

It is hard to think that my professor doesn't have something out for me. That she doesn't have some reason (unknown to me) for hating me. I'm just so angry!