Rebecca i think i understand what you are saying. That's becuase I have been there and still am there. I leave jobs and courses. I just freak out and leave. I get really scared and think that I'm not good enough so I leave. Now I can see this viscious cycle that I live in. I've got to stick at the job that I have now. I'm seeing a t as well so hopefully I can help get over this stuff that causes me to run. I just leave somewhere and I either tell them on a voicemail when I know that no one will be around to answer the phone or I write a letter. And at other times I have just not told anyone. Then I have to hide and not answer the door or telephone and avoid places and people. It makes life hard. I'm just so scared. I'm scared of getting in trouble or making a fool of myself or not being good enough. I want to stop running and freaking out. You are not alone. I would be happy to talk with you.