I got through to my T today. He wants me to come in for an assessment and see where to go from there. I cant get through to my pdoc today as they are out of the office for Thanksgiving break still. I am feeling worse and more depressed. I hate not being able to control my moods. I mean I can think happy thoughts and do all the right things that are suppose to be good for me while I'm depressed and it helps but it is never enough to turn things around.