Hi everyone!

Since i do not have a computer anymore due to my house being broken into,, i thought I would drop in and update you while im at the public internet access center.

Things are so terrible right now - my addiction is quite managed right now thankfully, but im fighting a losing custody battle where I may never see my son again. On top of that ive found out that the main reason for that is lies MY mother told, to child welfare and now they are trying to say I am mentally ill and violent tendancies. Sigh.

anyone who knows me knows I am the furtherest thing from violent...i abhor it and i dont even harm bugs because i feel so sad and awful when I do.

Aside from that, things with my boyfriend have been worked out some and have been going ok, but im still really really suspicious and i just dont know if my trust in him can be restored. Its really sad because i love him so much but if i cant trust him how can we be together right?

money is super tight right now, but im trying to stay in the mind that knows material goods are never truly as satisfying as emotions and personally close relationships. Im on the verge of giving up on my adoptive family because they have basically all refused to help me with my child and my aunt told me today "you just dont have any support here or in this family". not surprising because i never reALLY DID.

anyways, how are all my loves? drop me a line. I need the love of y'all right now to balance things out.