((Yellowted)) - this is one of the most beautiful things I've ever read...it brought me to tears, but that's okay. I'm so sorry for your grief. As I was reading it, I thought of my own mother who was widowed at the age of 33 with 5 children. I also thought of myself and the grief I felt when I discovered my husband married another woman(long story). You're lucky to have shared such a great love. Thank you for sharing.