Maybe I was fooling myself making this thread.

One would think that I take enough medications and have spent enough hours in therapy to get over some of this anxiety to function at a basic, secular level. Apparently I can't give even an informal demonstration without freezing up and being on the verge of tears. How pitiful!

I've always got to go make a fool of myself, don't I? When I look up, all I should see is dirt. It feels like I'm not going to get any higher than rock bottom.