Well, I've made the leap and managed to call out and get help. I managed to get in touch with my family doctor while growing up so he had a bit of background on my family and my own mental history and what we have tried in the past.

I have to say that I feel invigorated at the idea of trying something new, and had discussed several different options as far as treatment. We have tried Paxil in the past and I found that it didn't help the depression very much, and ended up making me gain quite a bit of weight. Prozac was a bomb for me, only exascerbating the apathy I had for the things around me.

At first we had discussed just putting me on an anti anxiety medication, as my panic attacks have become steadily worse over the last couple months, although there have been several stressful factors making things worse. Loss of a relationship, place to live and job together in a 3 month period really brought me to a low. He said that the anxiety may start to become a bit less aparent when I get my new place to live (end of November) and I have my new job already and am happy with it. It's only contract work at a tech company until the middle/end of December, but it will allow me to have enough money put aside to pay bills for January so I don't HAVE to have a contract right away after finishing up this one. I'm getting better with that and it's awesome.

After talking about those things, the stresses and depression that I had been feeling, he had recommended Wellbutrin. Unfamiliar with the side effects and such I was hesitant at first, but soon caved in after we had discussed costs and my not having insurance. He wrote the prescription and faxed it off to Rite Aid. I went to pick it up and was shocked at the cost of the perscription. $113.99 for a bottle. I paid it reluctantly and headed back to work because I was late. It was then that I realized that the bottle only contained 60 doses and after the first week on this med, I was going to be on it 2x daily, so I was looking at almost $115 a month for my medication.

I called and left a message with the office and talked to my doctor on the phone (which is awesome that he will help out with phone consults with me) and he told me to take it now for the first month at twice per day and see about moving down to 1x daily after that to see if that will still control the depression.

Now that I've told a huge story (and hopefully someone has read it) my question is twofold. Are there cheaper places traditionally to get prescriptions filled? I was recommended the Eastside Mental Health Clinic, but after looking on their site.

http://www.nami-eastside.org

I found nothing on their site about being able to get help from there, although I hear from several sources that it is a good way to go. I'm going to contact them tomorrow while I'm on my lunch break and try to talk to them about services performed and what it is that they can possibly do to help me out.

If there is anyone in the Seattle metro area on here that has some insight on where to turn when your medications become too expensive, I would love to talk to you about it or just get some help pointed in the right direction.

I think I'm about done with this novel here. Thanks anyone who read it.