Sorry your going through so much. You may want to look and see if they have a mental health association in or near the town that you work in. They may be able to help you find a psychiatrist and therapist that won't charge very much and you may even be able to get your medicine for free if you don't make a lot of money or for a small fee. When i wasn't working they helped me out. I am unable to work myself, i couldn't hold a job either due to depression and anxiety. I hope you can get some help for yourself. Best wishes to you.