I am devastated as my world is crumbling around me, all because of my alcoholism. Though there are good people around me for support, my state of mind is rotting with guilt, shame, internal conflict, no self esteem and other emotions from hell. I hid it for almost 10 years, while progressively it has gotten worse and worse. Now, I am a breaking point, completely at the mercy of alcohol and it's crippling grip. I am defeated, beaten up, and completely powerless. No one, it seems to me, understands. Or maybe I won't allow them. I am losing my place of employment and failing school. I am too young to be in this position. How can I, despite all the consequences, continue to drink!?
Please, if anyone has any advice, can relate or offer assurance....