So, my husband had an emotional affair. He said really nasty things to me and just in general hurt me.
Now I am dealing with the after effects. There are days that I just don't want to get out of bed.
I am ok now, but earlier I was sad and angry.
Sometimes I can't believe how depressed I feel. It makes me even more depressed to think that I am now depressed. It comes and goes. Today, I just thought about how much he lied to me (triggered by something he did today-nothing bad, just something that reminded me of a bad memory related to his affair/lies) I just felt sad and anxious. It is terrible. I cry some days, get angry. I feel like I have lost control of my emotions.
I look at him, and sometimes just think how he destroyed something very precious. It makes me very sad. I have been dealing with these feelings and sadness/depression for several months now.
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