Thanks guys, I'm feeling a bit better. I'm a bit unsure about who the lady was, which makes things a bit weird, but I'm trying to remain positive and keep my self-estem up. For yes, I know everyone has bad days, I think also my reality was a bt skewed, my emotions were all over the place. After I wrote that and got a good cry out, I felt better. I stuff down my emotions too much. Thanks again