thank you madisgram Sannah you always respond to me and I so appreciate you. I was thinking about your question. I guess I just feel like someones got to do it. I feel like we are supposed to be with our family for the holiday. I feel like I am responsible for my parents happiness. I feel like they are children in a sense. like they do not know how to get their house ready (mom is a horder not with trach bt papers and everything else).
I guess I felt responsible for doing this ...as I have in the past. But this time around I really didnt enjoy it at all....actually I never fully enjoy it I am always jeeped up and stressed out. I dont like to be around them that much. Maybe because they are in my space. I dont know.