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Originally Posted by Sannah
Did your professor tell you that you were failed because of your anxiety?
She told me she failed me because she saw me as anxious all the time. Except I'm not anxious all the time. I'm just anxious around two specific professors (and she is one of them). She doesn't see me at any time she isn't around so when she sees me I am anxious. But I'm not anxious all the time. Shje didn't fail me becasue I couldn't do the work in the class. She told me there was no reason for me to repeat the didactic portion of the class. The only way to "fix" my problem was to go to T, for which at the time I did not have enough money to go every week. She almost yelled at me telling me that I needed to put my T as a higher priority. I wanted to say "and which of the things above it in priority would you like me to make it more important than: 1. Rent 2. Food 3. Medication 4. Car (so that I can get to T and when I am able to find a job in this state that has some of the highest unemployment in the country I can get to it.) Which would you like me to bump off that list?"
It would be good to check this out and ask her directly.
This is where we were going last time, but we ran out of time. I kind of brought it up at the end of session hoping to get a yes or no answer out of her because we were so short on time. That didn't work. I just got the reply of "you think I have your best interest at heart right?" I wanted to reply (but didn't) "And what if we don't agree on what is best for me?"
Maybe we will get into it tonight.
My reply to this will depend on your reply to my first question in this post.
So this is like with your parents maybe? You were angry at them but were afraid to show it because they would withdraw their love?
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My parent's wouldn't withdraw their love when I got angry, they became abusive. For my dad whenever I got angry I was "PMSing". With my mom she would say that I had become a *****. If she was angry it was that and a lot more of it. My dad blamed me for not being able to keep my mom calm and collected and so it was my fault she was abusive. My dad made fun of me when I came home from school after being attacked and tried to tell them that I didn't want to go back. FML.