I am doing a lot better recently. The new meds are kicking in and my friends have taken good care of me for the most part...one of them removed my rifle (dont know where and dont really care) but it hasnt seemed as tempting since i got onto the forums i dont know but just getting things out helped a lot and thanks for your reply kris...believe it or not that helped too i was to the point i thought noone cared and the forum helped prove me wrong. thanks everyone

A great ship can weather the storm...as I float here in this rowboat and watch the storm approach I wish I had a friend to pull me up onto a ship.