Well, I have done pretty much nearly everything a BPD is described doing, short of actual physical damage to myself. Now putting myself in danger, well that's another story. Ahhh, but no more.......because I found out what was wrong with me, and decided to educate myself about the cause and what I needed to change. Man it was hard, diverting bad thoughts that would suddenly spring into my mind, controlling the emotions, it was horrible, just horrible. Then as I was reading this site there was a section on the Inner Child, and it all started to fall into place. There are three books you should read,
First one is Your Inner Child of the Past by W Hugh Missildine MD
Second one is I'm OK You're OK by Thomas Harris MD
Third one is Games People Play by Berne MD

I read #1 after I had nearly destroyed my relationship with my husband one weekend several months ago. In this weekend, he was well on his way to being 'split' again, and I was helpless at that point to stop what I was doing. Though what it did do was bring me to the worst point in my life and so open every emotional wound I had ever had, and make me face the destructive Child inside. I remember several months before telling my husband there was a monster inside me......didn't realize how right I was....sigh.......So when everything was raw and oozing that Sunday afternoon, something happened with a conversation between us, he told me he cared about me, but needed me to stop or fix or do something about how I was, because he wouldn't tolerate it anymore. This is what soothed the Child, for a day. The next day it tried to rear its ugly head again, and was soundly stomped on by Me. Yes, the Adult me was taking control of who and what I was, and I haven't looked back. My emotions have evened out, I've been on an extensive trip with my spouse 24/7 with him, not a single fight, cross word or thought.

I just finished the second book by Harris. It showed me how I deal with things, and why I do the crap I do. I am waiting for Games People Play, because this is what the BPD person does, plays games with the people that mean something to them. The 'Ain't It Awful' game seems to be a favorite for them. Was my favorite for a long time. Take a look at the section in the Psych site that is in my siggy below. This is where I started to really get my act together and became a person, a whole person. I've had some tears and hard awakening, but it has been so worth it to not have that empty feeling inside.

TgrsPurr said:
I'm also looking for others experience and hehaviors you've displaced in this area to see if I can relate to those too.

I look forward to the responses of this post and the potential for recognizing other things ppl with BPD they have done because of this very issue.
TgrsPurr.