I thought about asking my T once... because I wanted to really hear what was going on when I was splitting and an alter was out. At the time, my angry alter was giving me a lot of trouble and I thought recording the session would be cool perhaps. But I had not yet asked about it.
I had my new small camcorder/camera with me in my purse and my T was asking about what my work looked like in the room we were in. well, earlier that day I had used my new camcorder to take a small video of my work space and I got it out of my purse to show T but I had not learned how to use it yet. But his face totally changed as soon as I took it out and he was in total defense mode. I was not even recording but trying to just see if I could show him the work place. But that look on his face shuts me down inside. It is one of the very few things that I can't get around and will never in a zillion years bring up in session. But it was very painful to see that from him. VERY. It still makes me withdraw just seeing the replay. Had tons of hours of crying alone at night thanks to that event.
So asking about recording the session is totally a no-go for me.
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