tottaly understand where your coming from i have a pro's and cons sheet on my computer i have three sheets printed up i have one taped up on each bathroom mirror and one on my nightstand. for why i should continue taking my meds. cause i am notorious for stopping. every pill i have to remind myself why. i think well i'm all better arnt i or i go the polar opposite and say well it's not doing anything anyways. my mind constantly plays tricks on me. and instead of calling my pdoc i make rash decisions cause i know whats best