Hi All

I have finally taken all the courage I had and decided to seek for help, I do hope that I might find a way to cope with my current situation. Any advice is welcome, I'm so lost in this world that I am constantly anxious.

I have been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and a mild to severe depression, which I guess are somehow linked. The problem is that I can't seem to be able to tell a therapist about how I feel, there is so much going in my head that I feel lost again during each session and can't really decide what problem to address.

Basically, I have never been a happy child but the disorders strengthened after I underwent a benign brain tumor surgery. This surgery traumatized me beyond belief as for 6 months I had headaches that hurt so bad that no painkiller helped, until finally a surgeon found my problem. I had support from my family but my friends let me down. After that, I never really went back to normal, and suffer from constant anxiety, worrying and panicking every day and night, because of old or new events, because of nothing.

My husband has no tolerance whatsoever toward depressed people, and does not understand why I am constantly worrying and shaking. I can't find help with my family whom I left behind to follow my husband, they have their own problems. My beloved grandfather passed away, I had to resign from my job because my boss was even more anxious than me and aggravated my own issues. I am lost in a country I don't like, can't make friends, have no support, and perhaps need someone to tell me it will be alright.

As said, any advice would be appreciated. How do you cope? How do you find a good therapist? I am in Europe, and trust me, mental health care is not very good here.

Thank you.