Thank you, preacher. I like the colors!
Sannah: I don't know the answer to your question. I'm crying a lot today because I am feeling sad for the child--me. T yesterday got me to that place for a minute or so, instead of intellectualizing. I have something tangible to feel sad about even though I still don't know why.

tree: thank you. Yes, T in some important ways yesterday gave me what I NEEDED, not what I WANTED. She steered the conversation away from her. That hurt. She limited my emails. That hurt. She said she will continue talking about the time I'll be able to comfort the child parts myself. That hurt. She talked about helping me feel better. That hurt and felt good at the same time, as if she slapped me and hugged me simultaneously. She said that being able to comfort the child parts doesn't mean I have to quit therapy.

But she thought I NEEDED to hold her hand. That felt good and I can "feel" that connection now.

WePow: Thank you.

Peaches: Thank you for reminding me how my T differs from my last one.
I agree. I hurt the same way, though. I feel the hurt all over me but it must be coming from the child parts. My T is "touching" them, or at least one of them, and making her feel sad but not so alone. Something was different in this session. The hurt and pain are together with the knowledge that I still have that "blanket of love" from my T. She wants me to feel better. She cares. I'm real to her, not invisible. I matter to her!