running from attention sounds familiar .... like sitting with friends who are playing a card game but not playing with them, just watching....
like being a wall flower ..... standing on the sidelines.....not saying much.....just an onlooker ...
I can relate ....
I shy away from crowds ...
Shy away from being in the middle of the action ...
I love being on the puter with my friends .....

I can relate...but when I open up to people who are close to me they are always reassuring that this is not how they see me.....they want me to be involved and they want me to come out of my shell ...... T too .... and once I opened up to him I started to feel like what I had to say was important.....I am still working on a lot but it is getting a little better, even I see it in me more I hope that you can keep up with T sessions because it does help.
Hope u can open up to T and start to feel differntly than this