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Originally Posted by widgets
I dont think its BECAUSE i am bipolar i think its because i am just such a weak willed person.
I get depressed BECAUSE i am so useless.
Rather than i'm so useless cause i am depressed.
i hate it cause i know exactly what needs to be done and i can PHYSICALLY do it.
maybe i'm just a lazy cop out.
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This makes me sooooo angry
but I've been there and know how you feel so I'll try to be gentle.
IT'S NOT TRUE
You don't choose to be depressed or bipolar, its not coz your weak or lazy it just is. It's some twist of fate that landed you with the genes that predisposes you to chemical imbalances in your head. Would you say you were weak if the chemical imbalances were in you pancreas (diabetes?)
You FEEL useless when you are depressed - this is TRUE, but I know plenty of useless people who are not depressed so that is NOT TRUE!!!
Go easy on yourself, it is easy and normal for BPs to bite off too much when they are high, so try to set little goals and reward yourself. Somedays getting up is an achievement, or getting out of the house.
Can you get an appt with pdoc or T soon.