Thankyou very much, all of you, for your encouraging words.

It's just very hard for me to do anything about anything:
- I cant tell my friends because they have so many problems of their own.
- I cant tell my parents because theyre the nicest, most loving people ever and i wont allow them to blame themselves (also, they dont believe in depression or anything like that)
- I cant tell the doctor because Im too scared to go there.

So yeah, for the time being, having you all listen to my rambles does give me some support and once again I thank you all. xxxxx