... but can't seem to get over it. I'm sorry if I sound over-dramatic but this is just the way I feel: this week is auditions for the musical (Into the Woods). Performing in musical theater is truly my passion. I got good vibes from the director, he even told me when I didn't get callbacks to make sure to check back today b/c there were more callbacks. But I didn't get a callback today either. I'm just so heartbroken. I really wanted this to come through and have been dreaming about it for months. No callback typically means no part (although they say "you still may be cast even if you don't get a callback" - lies). I know I am a very lucky person and that this is a minor bump in the road but I just don't feel that way. I can't even think about it without tearing up. I can't focus long enough to do my work. I just want to cry. I'm also SO angry with the director and the theater department here. I'm good at doing musicals (not to sound conceited) but that's what I do! I can sing and I can act. What did he want from me? Why did he send me mixed messages that gave me SO much hope. I wouldn't be half as upset if he hadn't given me hope... The theater department is notorious for favoritism so I can't help but feel he had pre-cast the show so that I didn't even have a chance when I started out. I'm just so disheartened and trying to figure out what I did wrong?

I'm sorry if this sounds awful and petty and stupid but it's just how I'm feeling right now. I know there are SO many much bigger problems out there in the world...