Sometimes when I'm feeling shy about e-mailing T for whatever reason, I'll write an e-mail and save it in my drafts. I decide I'll send it the next day if I still want to. Usually, I will add to it, edit it, add a little more and over the course of a few days, I don't even need to send it anymore. Just the process of getting things down on paper, and knowing I will tell T about them eventually, sort of helps me. Then, when I go to my session, I have some clarity about what I need to talk about.

I didn't plan for the e-mails I save in my drafts to work out that way, but they just did.

I'm finding that the less I e-mail T, the less I need to e-mail him. I really CAN get through my feelings, I just needed to experience it to really believe it was possible.

Hang in there, Rainbow.