Don't worry, I've also had these suicidal fantasies. I'm not really sure why I get them. I'm not saying my life is perfect and I'm always happy (even if it seems at times, but it's more of a facade), it's just that I know I will never committ such act because I can't bare the thought of leaving my mother behind. I don't wanna leave this world knowing I still haven't fully made up for what I feel guilty for. When I'm really mad and can't control it, sure, I get some suicidal thoughts, but there are times when I'm riding in the car, and I look out the window and look on to the speeding pavement, and I feel like just opening up that door and jump out. There are times when if I'm in a high place, I feel like jumping off. There are times when I'm walking on the sidewalk, and when I hear a car zooming by, I feel like jumping in front of that car. I'm not sure why I crave for Death...