Well I suppose I'll get right into it.

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My dream last night triggered a lot of emotions..

It started off with me going to an outdoor public pool in the middle of summer. I was standing in the middle of the shallow end, where in my dream the latest Being Erica episode had been shot, getting ready for some type of modelling shoot, or commercial filming with an unknown girl, and two other boys who in my dream were my closest friends.

When we were finished the boys took off and the girl and I hung around, and soon after we found out my idol, Vanessa Carlton, was going to be coming to the pool for her recording. To get to the studio you had to go across the pool and enter through a door that was half submerged in water and in my dream of course this was all just basic fact and how it all worked.

So she came and I flipped, I raced after her into the pool with my friend and jumped between her and a body guard. I was about to ask if she was really, really Vanessa and tell her how much her music meant to me (as most crazy fans do) when she interrupted, mocked my words and told me all fans were annoying and she didn't even know why she did this job. She shoved past me and this humiliation triggered a wave of anger and I ran out of the pool and starting cussing at her and insulting her from the edge. She then only rolled her eyes at me, said she was sorry in a sarcastic tone and went into the building. I kept up the tantrum until one of her body guards came over and grabbed me. He shouted at me saying that she had already apologized and asked me what more did I want. I said that what she had said wasn't even an honest apology. He just told me I had to leave.

So I left to the change room where I broke out into tears. Rachel (my ex best friend who had shared this love of Vanessa with me) sat on the bench in front of me, and my new friend tried to calm me down with a silent embrace. Rachel then told her she knew nothing about my feelings, and said she should just leave the comforting to her because she knew me better. The other girl left and my dream ended with Rachel and I leaving the changing rooms as friends again.

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Now.. I dunno if this might have some obvious or hidden meaning to it all.. in fact it seems more like just one of those nonsense dreams I usually have but the fact that I made my favorite celebrity into a horrible stuck up snob is just wrong and disturbing to me..