Great thread shadowdancer.

As for me I don't think anyone that was here when I started posting here can forget who I am and what my beliefs surrounding DID are.

I sent MANY people into war against me, Sent MANY scurring for cover and wouldnt be surprised if some are no longer here because of the way I started posting.

I know that my way of looking at things is unique and comes after MANY years of therapy.

The reason I posted like I did when I first came on was so that I didn't have to hide myself from others, by reading silently and not posting when I saw people that I could help, because there were going to be people not ready for what those at my level are ready for. In the real world support groups I have worked very hard to stop hiding myself from others. In a real world group be it therapy or support no one hides themselves from the group for the sake of others, and everyone is expected to be up front honest right from the beginning so when I am on line I follow those therapy/support group guidelines. I also didn't want to be on here for a while and then start posting to people and have my threads and posts be so unlike what everyone got used to from me that I ended up getting banned just for revieling where Im at in therapy, and those beliefs around DID and my therapy programs. At the time I felt it was best that people see the real me right from the beginning. At a terrific support group called HOPE (Helping Ourselves through Personal Empowerment) we had a saying - There is always going to be someone less advanced than I am and someone more advanced than I am on the healing road so the best thing is to be myself instead of keeping myself stuck for others and/or pushing myself to death to be at their level. I wanted to be myself right from the beginning.

Though I still believe posting the way I did and do now is the right thing to do because I'm not denying me anymore at the expense of others I would like to say I am sorry that my being me and my therapy programs/beliefs in regards to DID have hurt those that are not at my level of healing and therapy.

Please do put me on ignore if you are not ready for what I post. I don't pm (with exception of the moderators) unless people pm me first that way I am only in pm with those that are ready for the more details that I offer in pm then posting on the boards. Most of my information both personal and in regards to my therapy is in my blog that way only those that want to and are ready to can read about me and my therapy journey there. At times my advanced therapy information does come out on these boards in my helping others. Thats who I am. For those that are not ready for my posts I believe there is a feature that allows the person the option of not reading my public posts. please use this feature if you are not ready for the information that I post. I am not going to be offended because I am on your ignore for posts and pms. You need to do what you need to to take care of yourself and be yourself. I don't expect any more or less from anyone in real life or on line.

Thanks again shadowdancer for this wonderful thread. And I am sorry to those that I have hurt along the way.

Take care all.