Taynat... I M O you need to stick with your current T.. it isn't her.. it's you. Not that THAT"S a problem.... not that you are a problem...

What I sense is that you are trying to push her away... if you didn't share something already, then maybe you've realized how close she is to finding out something and you're trying to make sure she doesn't? Or no one does? I'm glad you have meds to help with your anxiety.. work with them... remember, nothing will happen in T's office that you don't want... you don't have to share anything you aren't ready to... maybe therapy began going too fast for you... or just got really close to an issue you are still needing to avoid. Don't avoid your T. Your T is your hired consultant, you ask her for advice, answers or other opinions than you have.. based upon her expertise.

share with your T... how you feel like not coming, but really want to be able to... how you want to leave but are afraid for some reason... I'm sure she can help you work through all this... even if they feelings of trust towards her (your T) that you are uncomfortable with... TC