I want to thank you for your responses. I will take everything said into consideration. Right now, being newly diagnosed, I find myself just wanting to keep to myself until I've aquired the tools necessary to stop creating all this mess and distruction in my life. I have destroyed every relationship I've ever had...family, friends, boyfriends and working relationships. I just can't go on like this anymore and am using therapy to sort a lot of this out. I've been dealt a pretty awful lot in my life...things totally out of my control that I must contend with too. I feel a bit overwhelmed right now, but at least I have some direction to work toward. I find life to be just so hard...so hurtful...so mean and cruel. People, affording life, managing such serios disorders (BP & BPD), the mouthful of meds I have to take each and every morning just to function in everyday life. I'm not doing the "poor me" bit...just stating the facts as I know them.
Anyway...here's to healing!
TgrsPurr, xo.