Yes, for me this would have also been VERY triggering. I have cancelled T apps in the past, because at the time I felt totally in control and happy. I then terribly regretted and battled to wait a full week until my next app.

Please try contact you T - call, e-mail, or text him. It's important you let him know how you feel, and your feelings are very real and valid.
I'm sorry this happened to you