Wow, good questions, Sannah. Rainbow, if your child part can receive love but your adult self can't, then maybe the underlying problem isn't exactly an unmet childhood need for love. Maybe there's something else going on that you're not aware of, something that happened (could have been during your childhood but not necessarily) that's made your adult self feel so undeserving that you're unable to accept love from other people. That could explain why your adult relationships feel so unfulfilling but you crave love and it feels great to receive love from your T -- it's the only relationship where you can actually accept it because it's the child part that's receiving it. It would make sense that you would continue to search for love from T's because therapy brings out the child parts who can accept love and you can't accept it from anyone else.
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