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Hi - Please do NOT beat yourself up. This isn't your fault. You are NOT her babysitter. She knew what she was doing - this was a crisis for her, and she had a lapse. Did she get DRUNK??? If she didn't, then there was no harm done. If she DID, then it's still not your fault because she KNEW what the chances are that she wouldn't be able to put it down.
I'm a recovering alcoholic too -- and I know what will happen if I pick up the first drink. I'm going to get drunk. She knows this too because ALL of us have had that drummed into us. It's not the last drink that gets us drunk - it's the first. We KNOW that. And so does she. So don't beat yourself up.
Yes, it was a terrible tragedy that she had to go thru - but she's going to have to learn how to cope with these without booze. This time she didn't make it. Hopefully next time something happens, she'll make a better choice. Stop judging yourself. You did what you were asked to do - you did NOTHING wrong. Forgive yourself sweetie. God bless you. Hugs, Lee
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